Saturday, September 27, 2008


There is a little girl we know that is in the hospital fighting for her life right now. She contracted e-coli a few weeks ago and it took 3 visits to the ER and insurance confirmation for the Dr's to figure it out. Now she is dealing with kidney failure, has a feeding tube and swelling of the heart. Macy may not live to see her 4th birthday. When we got the update today, My dad suggested we stop what we were doing and pray for her. So as we were sitting in the living room praying I got to thinking about my life. I have two healthy children. There are days I take that for granted, more days than I really would care to admit. As of right now, I have never had to sit and wonder if my baby would make it through the night. Yes, they have been sick before and it worried me but never have they been on the brink of death. I got to thinking about this little girls parents and what they must be going through. I cant even begin to imagine the pain they are dealing with. My heart breaks for them. I thank God with everything I have that I havent had to sit and watch my baby suffer like that. I dont know what the future holds for us and there may come a day where I know that kind of pain...I pray not...but only God knows. But right now i feel so blessed. Sometimes it takes something tragic in our lives or the lives of other we know, for us to see just how blessed we really are. We take so many things for granted on a daily basis. God blesses us all daily and we tend to over look those things. I get sad because my husband is gone...when I should be thanking God for the man that i have. I should be thanking Him for giving me a husband that loves me with all his heart, a man that I never have to wonder about, a man that treats me like a queen even when i deserve anything but. God gave me a man that is willing to stand for something, willing to fight for what he believes in. Yet all I can do is dwell on the fact he has to leave sometimes. I should be thanking God for the time we have together instead of complaining about the time we spend apart. I could go on and on about the things I take for granted everyday. God has been so unbelievably good to me, there just are no words to describe it. But most of all he saved me, He sent His Son to die for me...that in and of itself is more than I ever deserved.
I'll stop now, but please keep Macy in your prayers and when you kiss your kids and your husband next time...remember what God has given you and thank Him.

1 comment:

proud2Bmomma said...

I have so many things I want to say!! But, first, I'm with you and the desire to stay grateful. In about a 12 hour span, out transmission (might) went out on our 4 yr old van and hubby got a traffic ticket. He tells me "why does my life have to suck right now?" and I totally jumped down his throat. It "sucks" when your baby dies, not when you have car trouble and a $75 traffic ticket.

AND, don't be so hard on yourself when it comes to deployments. Yes, you should be grateful. But the life of a military wife is very difficult and it is okay if you get down for a while. Just don't stay there! ((HUGS))